hopes
Journal Entry: Sun Jun 24, 2007, 1:54 AM
- Mood:
Yearning - Listening to: MPR
- Reading: CS Lewis space trilogy
- Watching: Juuonsei
- Drinking: muddy water (espresso+ coco+ spice)
My life is very important to me, and I dont know what I am going to do with it, but sometimes I get glimmers of the big picture when things happen, like the way shoes appear before me on church steps, or the way the thrift shop always has exactly what I have been needing, and the way I always find cheap travel books for exaclty where I'm looking to go, and luggage too.
The only thing I know I wanted to study when I entered college was "what is this world? how does it work?" Now I've expanded it to include the question, "and what can I do to better it?"
Sometimes I say I just want to learn massage therapy and herbalism, then paint and sell my photography all day, but this is only partially true.
Today I aquired from my beloved Hard Times Cafe a lonely planet guidebook for Bangkok, Thailand (a place I have been dreaming of) and their complete guidbook to Europe. Also, a sturdy pair of boots. Doesn't this indicate something?
The art-for-social-change course I took pissed me off for destroying my finances and not meeting my expectations, but it got me thinking and I am thinking now, but looking for my goals is like looking across the street at a list of options, squinting through the pouring rain.